Friday, March 30, 2012

Friday 3.30

I was looking over the photos that are on my phone right now, and these pictures make me smile because:

...kids will be kids.


... my 2.5 yearly and 7 month old have the same size thighs!


...being independent doesn't always look good.


...I took my kids to see one of the seven natural wonders of the world and their favorite part was these polished rocks in the gift shop.


...I caught nick sleeping with this pink bear cradled in his arms.


...after I let Rand play a game on my phone there are about 20 screen shots just like this.

Thursday, March 29, 2012

Thursday 3.29


On Saturday Nick and I are doing a metric century bike ride. I am nervous and excited since I've never done a ride that long before. Hopefully I'll be back next week with a good report.

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Goodbye to the Acura

A few weeks ago I posted about getting a new car.
Last week the day came to say goodbye to the old one.
It's been a great car for the last five years, and I definitely would I have continued driving it if we hadn't outgrown it when baby #5 came along.
I actually think I am more attached to Nick's truck than my own car, at least sentimentally.
So although it was a little bit sad, it was mainly just nice to get it sold, cash the check, and have one thing checked off the to do list:)

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

More photos of my Mom

My cousin came up with several more old photos that include my mom.

Here she is (far left) with her parents and siblings at the cabin in Forest Lakes.













She is in the red dress here.













On the far right in this one.

Monday, March 26, 2012

Like it, love it, can't live without it

My bike... she's nothing fancy when it comes to road bikes but she's special to me:)

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Old Photos

My uncle posted this old photo of him and my mom when they were kids (1967) on Facebook so I stole it!

I posted it on instagram and soon my cousin Connie came up with another one for me.

My mom and her brother with their aunt (Connie's mom). I think this has to be around 1960 or 1961?
So fun... I love old photos:)

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Felicity

Did any one else watch the show Felicity?
I think I was about 14 when it came out and I remember loving it.
I noticed it on Netflix the other day and so I have been watching it all over again:)
It's it's kind of fun.

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

ilove

We got a new toy at our house today...

Nick has been trying to convince me what a good idea it is to get "the new ipad". He has told me how much I will love it, and how it can replace my old (circa 2006) macbook. I finally relented and got on board with the idea and he ordered one.

All week as we waited for it to arrive we've been playfully bantering (as we're known to do) about whose ipad it really is, who gets to use it first, who gets it the most, and so on. All along he's been telling me that he had it inscribed with the phrase "Nick's ipad, not Jacie's". By the end of the wait I half believed him:)

So today when the package arrived and I opened it up the first thing I noticed was this...



















He must have sensed that even though I gave my blessing to buy it, I still wasn't completely sold.

Smart man... when all logical arguments fail... use love as a tool to get what you want:)

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Oh how I love my tub!



I LOVE my bathtub.
It makes me happy.
It relaxes me.
It calms me down.
It soothes me at the end of a long day.
It takes away my pain when my muscles hurt.
It takes away my stress.
It helped me bring two baby girls into the world!
Actually, now that I think about it, it was water that did all those things...
But the tub holds the water, and makes all these things possible so...
I LOVE the tub!

Like it, love it, can't live without it

Farrah-di-do-da and her two brand new itty bitty teeth.

Friday, March 9, 2012

Dinner on Friday night


The story of Friday night dinner: In which a young woman makes the most of a displeasing situation

Once upon a time there was a girl who made a delicious pizza & a delectable green salad for dinner on a Friday night.
Her family loved it when she made pizza on Friday nights.
On this particular night the children were especially excited.
So excited in fact, that they badgered and pestered her, coming constantly into the kitchen to check on her progress.
Each time they found that dinner wasn't yet ready they whined and complained.
Her husband didn't exactly complain, but he would still play his role in her dismay.
Finally the food was ready.
She set the table, slicing the pizza with care, and giving the salad a final toss.
Then she called the children in from the backyard, where she had sent them when their complaints had grown distracting to her.
She also called her husband, who was doing some very important Internet searches.
She waited but no one came.
She called again, and again but still no one came.
She became a bit incensed.
She was just about to turn grouchy and hunt them down one by one when suddenly she thought better of it.
Instead she sat down at the table all alone and served herself a nice plate of food.
Then she ate it all by herlself, and in silence.
She found this all rather relaxing, which was unusual for dinner time in her household.
By the time she was done the children had wandered in.
They proceeded to complain when they saw she had already eaten, saying, "but mother why didn't you tell us dinner was ready."
She sighed as she began to prepare their plates. She did this partly because she was exasperated with them.
But a little part of her sigh was also contentedness that she had enjoyed her meal alone;)
Later when everyone was done eating and she was cleaning up her husband finally came into eat.
He got to eat alone too.... But as for if he enjoyed it... Only he can tell you that!
The End

Thursday, March 8, 2012

They were listening


Sometimes I wonder if my kids absorb anything I am teaching them. I was validated this week when I went to check the kids online spelling assignment. If they have learned nothing else at least I can rest assured that they would rather buy their toys than steal them:)

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

Looking forward to Spring Break

Next week is Spring Break and we are headed to one of my favorite places... The Grand Canyon. I am going to attempt to get the rest of my family as addicted as I am. I'll let you know how it works:). I can't wait!

I have been pouring over maps...


And even preparing the baby for her first GC experience... Do you thing she'll appreciate it?

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Something old, something new


I'm getting a new ride.
Well it's not really new, just new to me.
I tend to like my vehicles new to me and old to someone else though....
So this baby suits me just fine.
Right size (has to tow the boat), right number of seats, right price.
The fact that it was owned by an old man who had nothing better to do than meticulously maintain it is just the cherry on top:)
If all goes as planned I will pick it up tomorrow night and I can't wait!

Monday, March 5, 2012

Like it, love it, or can't live without it

An awesome girl named Candice who watches my kids all weekend so Nick and I can have a little late anniversary celebration!

Rodeo Days


Last week was Rodeo Days! That means a few days off school for the kiddos. On one of them we went to "the grassy place" for a picnic. It was so nice to enjoy perfect weather (sunny but cool) for the short time it exists here in the desert. I get outside quite a bit to bike and run but this reminded me I need to get outside more on lazy days because it lifts my spirits:)

Friends


A few weeks ago we had some friends from out of town come and stay with us.
We haven't seen them in a few years and it was so great to catch up.
They have four little boys so add that to our 5 kids and it was a house full of craziness and fun!
I'm so glad they came:)

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Wednesday 2/29

I am laughing right now because Rand is really mad at me.
The funny part is not that he's mad... the funny part is that he's mad and I can hear what he's saying about me from the other room.
He is saying (to Blythe) "Mom is so mean, and she is stupid too! She is really STUPID!!"
Then I hear Blythe repeat "Stupid... stupid"
Maybe I shouldn't find it so funny.
Perhaps I should be barging in there to tell him not to teach his 2 year old sister words like stupid.
But I won't do that... not this time.
Because what are big brothers for after all, if not to teach you bad words and commiserate with you when your parents are mean?
Even though I wish they didn't find me so irritating I'm glad they have each other:)

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Reminder


Yesterday I was reminded of one of the many reason why my guy is right for me. Sometimes I take him for granted and I shouldn't cause he's the best!

Like it, love it, or can't live without it

Did I do this one already? I can't remember! Oh well...

My Nike Free running shoes.

I love these shoes + their my favorite color (actually they're still a little green from the Color Run!
At least five other family members have gotten them too... I'm an inspiration what can I say:)

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Baby #2


This guy and I have been having a hard time getting along lately, and it makes me really sad:( He thinks a little differently than I do and a little differently than my other kids do. Sometimes I have a hard time figuring him out. He isn't very forthcoming with his feelings and he tends to take things personally. I always feel like I'm handling things just a little bit wrong with him but I am not sure how to fix it. I hope he is forgiving when he grows up and realizes that I was doing the best I could to understand him and that I love him so much no matter what!

Like it, love it, or can't live without it

Nursing/ cuddling my sweet little Farrah-do!

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Green Drink


I got a fabulous new blender for Christmas.
I want my family to get all the nutrients out of their fruits and veggies you know!
I started making them all drink really GREEEN smoothies.
I could tell by their reactions that I jumped ahead of myself a little with this intense level of green.
I've toned it down a bit and I am breaking them in more gradually now.
I think it is working because the other day Rand told me that the smoothie I made him was "only a little bit yucky, but also a little bit good too"

Victory... I think so!

Kaylie

My sister is almost 15
She is the best babysitter.
My kids LOVE her.
She is also a lot of fun to hang out with.
She was not quite 5 when I got married.
That is the same age as Rand is now (my third child!)
I am glad to have her as a sister.
She is growing up to be an awesome person.

Birth

I was thinking about this the other day, and I can't believe almost six months have passed.

The feelings I had during, and right after, were so intense it was hard to imagine they would ever fade.
But they have.
The memory is vivid but the feelings themselves have paled.
It is a good thing, and also a sad one.



Birth is a very solitary experience in some ways.
Only while it is being experienced can its energy be truly fathomed.
No matter how many people gather around to provide support there will always be one woman alone with the torrent.
This isolation is alternately distressing and empowering.



Knowing complete responsibility to carry out a task so grueling can bring despair to the very soul.
On the other hand embracing and directing those all encompassing sensations brings with it an unrivaled sense of power and control.



Because of birth...
I am grateful to be a woman.
I know I am strong, and I feel empowered.
I love my body, and I can finally see the beauty in it.
I know I can do anything I put my mind to.

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

V-day

Lots of love to all my Valentine's... you guys are my favorites!



Thanks for letting me torture you with lots of photos this morning:)

Monday, February 13, 2012

Saturday, February 11, 2012

February 10, 2006

The anniversary of my mom's death just passed. I usually just kind of avoid thinking about it when this day rolls around. I feel like I still haven't fully grieved her death. There was so much going on at that time and I truly felt I couldn't afford to break down. I told myself at the time that once the funeral was arranged and over and I had taken care of my dad (etc.) then I would really let myself feel everything.

I simply shut down.

By the time everything was said and done I think I had waited too long to really feel everything and process it normally. So my repressed grief shows up in spurts and starts here and there. I never know when or what will trigger it. It's as if I'm afraid that if I really let the flood gates open I will never be able to recover from it. That probably sounds really weird but it is what it is. I actually think this is the most I've written regarding my feelings about her death.

I miss my mom. It makes me sad that she doesn't know my kids. I try not to think about that because it really bothers me. I do believe I will see her again. That knowledge sustains me, but it doesn't stop me from feeling a little bit mad that I have to wait so long. I also miss just having a mom in general. A mom is someone who loves you no matter how you act or how much you complain. A mom takes care of you when you're a mom yourself and you don't feel like you can let yourself off the hook. A mom is someone you call for advice. A mom is there for you when you're sick, or hurting, or have something to celebrate. There are many other people in my life that can and do step in to fill-in in these situations. My dad has always been especially great about this. Including coming and taking care of me when I have a baby! (Yeah, he's pretty much awesome:) But it's still not the same as having her here.

I have a lot more feelings and thoughts about her, but it is all a little too complicated to face right now so I think I'll call this good.

The Color Run

The Color Run was a few weeks ago and I ran it with my sister- in- law Candice. To sum it up you run a 5k while volunteers throw powdered chalk of different colors at you. The only requirement is that you wear a white shirt.

Here are some before shots...


Candice made up us some sweet white tutu's to wear:) Also a creepy guy jumped in our photo... what the???

I know I shouldn't have taken a photo of this but seriously people... if you think you should leave the house in tiny white spandex shorts, especially if you're an over weight, middle aged man... think again! You wouldn't believe the huge number of people we saw sporting this look! It was worse in real life too.


Other than run-ins with see through shorts the run was a whole lot of fun. It was a pretty laid back atmosphere and was not timed. As the race began we made a last minute decision to go ahead and run the whole way instead of taking it easy like most of the people around us.

When we ran through the "color zones" the powder was a bit suffocating. We quickly got into a pattern of skirting the crowds and hopping in, getting colored, and hopping out again.

After shots...



By the end I had color in my mouth, and everywhere else you can imagine. After showering I even had some lingering green that took a few days to wear off!


Candice left me a colorful seat in my car:) Check out her version of events here.


Overall a fun experience and I think I would do it again.

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Happy 10th Nicky!

You are the love of my life. I could not live without you by my side every day. You are my best friend, lover, and confidante. I thank my Heavenly Father everyday that we found each other, and that you took that "leap of faith" with me. The knowledge that we can be together through this life and the next brings me sweet solace, and my heart swells when I think of being with you forever.