Update

The one month mark is looming over me. My sweet little baby is 3 weeks and 5 days old today. Time is working against me and my plan to enjoy this brand new little girl. If only the newborn days would pass as slowly as the pregnancy I'd be in heaven.

Now that home life is officially almost under control (almost is about as much as I can ask for these days:) I am beginning to write my birth story. This birth was such a different experience. I am so happy that I chose to give birth at home. I wish that I could go back and do it with my other three babies. I will post about it here when I'm done organizing my thoughts. Look out because I am now officially a birth junkie!

My oldest baby started kindergarten. That has been a little bittersweet. I can't help but feel that I'm turning over her upbringing to someone else. I know "home is where the heart is" but there is so much out there in the world I'm not ready for her to learn. I hope I did enough to prepare her for the real world. (That's what they're calling kindergarten now-a-days:)

I am looking forward to being able to write more here in the future. I went through a kind of writer's block the last couple of months. But recently I am bursting with ideas. I blame it on the sleepless nights! My head is finally clearing so look out. A bonus of breast feeding is that it's a great excuse to be on the computer:)



PHOTO: Baby after her first trip to the pool 8/8/09

I think I need a warning sign.

I am 36 weeks pregnant,
and 4 weeks from my due date.

I am very uncomfortable,
and there is nothing I can do about it.

I am extremely irritable,
and even though I know it - I still can't be nice.

I am emotional,
and that is an understatement.

I am exhausted,
and it isn't going to get better.

I am nesting like a crazy woman,
and driving my family crazy trying to keep the house clean.

I am not being a very fun mom right now,
and my kids are bored out of their minds.

I am not being very nice to my husband,
and he is still being nice to me.

I am excited to give birth naturally,
and I am scared about it too.

I am getting a little worried,
and it is because this baby still doesn't have a name.

I am kind of a mess,
and it will get better:)